Friday, June 11, 2010

8 oz. of...meat

Well, I don't feel great about this, but this is what this blog is all about for me. Documenting my successes, failures, all of it. It's to motivate me, and hopefully help others.

2 weekends ago, I wasn't feeling great. I was hungry. I needed something satisfying. I was craving a burger from this place, 8 oz., I had been to many times in my omnivore days, and a few times since for a veggie burger. But, this time, my nostalgia for a real burger came over me. I really wanted one. So, I researched where they got their meat from, and it was from Estancia ranch. They claim the following on their website:

"We only sell beef from animals that graze in pastures on fresh green grass – no feedlots, ever... At Estancia, we raise healthy animals without using any growth hormones or growth promoting antibiotics. Our animals live their entire lives on the free range."

This was good enough for me, at the time. I know from reading Eating Animals that no matter how the animals live, even in the best of circumstances, of which I believe Estancia qualifies, the kill floors in the processing plants are a horror show. This did not deter me this time.

It's the first time I've had actual meat since going vegan. And it went down as easily as it would have a year ago, before going vegetarian. Satisfied.

I can't really say I regret it. I wouldn't have done it if I was going to beat myself up over it. It's crazy how what used to be something that required no thought now is a huge endeavor. What it showed me is how powerful my habits and rituals involving food are. They really drive my behavior. It's like an imprint in my brain that craves to be remembered. I just need more practice and it will get easier with time.


  1. depends on why you are veg/vegan. if it's because of the treatment of animals on factory farms, then you didn't violate your sense of morality.
    if you feel that to take a life needlessly is wrong, regardless of the quality of life lived by the victim animal, then knowing something is from a 'nicer' farm is not sufficient to justify this.
    everyone finds their own balance and strength of morality to live by.

  2. I agree with Shay. It is a struggle when you are bombarded with meat everywhere- Our society does not cater to those that choose a different lifestyle. I have slipped too and have felt awful about it. I ate some candy with gelatin the other day, of course read label after I bought it and consumed a few. I wanted to throw up, thinking about what gelatin really is. The fact that you wanted to blog about this shows it is on your mind.
    It is a journey and a hard one at that. If it matters at all... you have inspired me with your lifestyle choices.

  3. Thanks Amy, it does matter. I'm doing my best :)

  4. I read this and admittedly thought, how could a vegan eat a living creature? But I think about it and realize that I have been vegetarian since childhood. My memories of food are based on a meat-free lifestyle. I remember that I would still make "exceptions" on occasion and when I went vegan, I ate honey. (I said it was because I hate bees, which I do, but it was really because I wanted honey on things that I remember having honey on.) Memory ties in very strongly with food, comfort foods are based in that. You have already made a difference in just one year of vegetarianism. If eating a burger made you feel better, I think it is understandable.

  5. Thanks for that Kittie. It really is a something tied to my memories and emotions—it's amazing

  6. When you have intense urges of the body it is better to give in if they are not too hard to live with.Good cravings lead to more of the sort so better satisfy the craving and go on with the regular schedule of diet later.

  7. I don't understand what you're trying to say Elec...

    Are you saying to give into cravings (meat, etc.)because they eventually will diminish? or the opposite?

  8. Did you get sick? I year after I went veggie I had meat
    at a catered event. I asked what they would with the plate after they set down on the table, they said they would have to throw it away. I HATE wasting food so I thought I was doing the right thing by keeping the plate and eating it. I got soooo sick, that it was probably one thing that will keep me from doing it again. I know I should be vegan but struggle with it, especially because of the area I live in. I really appreciate your honesty and value that your journey is real. I'm still a fan. Best of luck!

  9. In the words of JS Foer himself; "In the world, change is not a switch but a process. Being serious about changing requires a certain amount of forgiveness."

  10. i, too, became vegan after reading "eating animals"--i was an avid meat lover all my life. now i can't imagine eating it, knowing the facts.

    what i always think about when i crave meat, and know i could seek out something "cruelty free", is: could i kill that animal myself?

    the answer is always no. in essence, i'd be paying for someone else to do my dirty work, and don't want to think about how the animal got to my plate. even w/o factory farms, that trained "forgetting" is still taking place.

  11. good on ya mate for the eating and the honesty. your body knows what it needs, and often as not, packages of processed veggies are not it.

  12. Hi! I found your blog through Blogged. Great post, the honesty is appreciated. :)
    I did this recently with cheese (I'm a new Vegan) so I can understand where you're coming from! Unfortunately, sometimes it takes falling off the wagon to make us realize that we want back on! Good luck!


  13. Hi, just wondering how you are now. I am inspired by your stories and the effort to share them. Keep on eating conscious, wheter that is with some meat sometimes or without.
    Best wishes, Melanie