Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Starting over, slower

The reason why I started this blog was to document and share my story, good or bad, as I decided to quit eating meat. That quickly turned into being vegan. I wanted to show that it was possible, even for a naysayer like myself who suddenly decided to make a change. Deep inside I was hoping it might inspire somebody to re-think their diet, but I didn't expect anyone to read it except my Mom. Well, now is a good time to check in, because it hasn't been working out. At least not in black and white terms. However, being vegan for a while, and doing all the research I did, my diet is changed forever, for the better.

Before and after my surgery (9 months ago) I started eating animal products again, mainly for nutritional purposes. I talked about it here. I've pretty much been rolling that way ever since. I've had some fully vegan weeks here and there, but that's it. I'm not fully physically healed, but I'm getting there. My body is still in the rebuilding stage, and it's important I continue to get stronger to protect my back from future injury.

Here's the conundrum. I want to be vegan. I want my body to thrive on a vegan diet. I really do. But, I felt myself lose energy. I couldn't put weight on. I lost weight. I felt weak. All the things that I had convinced myself don't happen to vegans. I don't know if I didn't eat a wide enough variety of foods, or if I didn't eat enough, or if my body genetically wasn't meant for veganism. But whatever the problem, it's a problem. And it's one I'm intent on solving. I want this blog to lead to a happy ending, where I figure out the vegan diet I need and can thrive with. I'm a little afraid that it might not happen.

Now that I've had some time to heal, and to think, I've decided to recommit to being vegan. This time though, I'm taking it slower. Instead of stopping all at once, I'm going to phase out animal products. And I'm really going to listen to my body and watch my weight. I will not compromise my health for this. Hopefully it won't come to that.

3 comments:

  1. I hear you. I was vegan along side you. I really wanted to be more physically fit, have more energy and be able to tout the vegan thing and use myself as a shining example. I still find chicken vile, but the rest of the meats... I have some here and there and I feel stronger. I want to have a happy ending, too, so when you figure it out, I'll be reading to find out how to do it for myself. Thanks for the honest reports. Game on.

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  2. I think your idea of going slow is very clever and let's the body take its time. I have tried a black and white vegan sudden meat and diary stop and ended up as a vegetarian (that's not bad either - but it's not vegan, as I wanted it to be)...My problem is, that if I make exceptions once, I will do them all the time. So I have to figure out how to do it the slow way...So you're an inspiration :) Keep on trying!

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  3. Thanks for being so honest with your posts and letting us in even when you've not achieved success. It's a roller coaster ride. It took me years of going back and forth before committing to veganism. Have you seen the new film that just came out called "Forks Over Knives" It's all about health and nutrition of a vegan diet and there are a few athletes featured on there including vegan fireman/iron-man athlete Rip Esselstyn.

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