Tuesday, February 2, 2010

I caved. Thrice.

Last night, I caved. I knew that the hot, fresh, gooey, crispy, delicious dinner rolls on my table at Miceli's Italian Restaurant most likely had butter and/or milk in them. But that didn't stop me. And it didn't stop me the last two times I've been there since going vegan. But, at least I never buttered the rolls.

In those moments, I allowed myself to put the suffering of animals behind my immediate desires. I was totally aware of this as I was doing it. It reminded me of the state of mind I used to be in as a meat eater. It's an odd and not-so-good feeling, and one I prefer to avoid. So, that's it—you ridiculously yummy dinner rolls. Never again! I'm going to refuse you from now on. Yep. I am. Uh huh. Boom. (OK, I'm gonna ask the waiter if they're vegan first...just in case.)

7 comments:

  1. I just want to tell you how much of an inspiration you are! I recently started following your blog because I am a Vegetarian working on the transition to Veganism {through Macrobiotics}.... I love your honesty!

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  2. Discipline: admirable. Can't crucify yourself for slippin' every now and then, but you obviously take it to heart and use it as momentum to assist your resistance next time around.

    Diggin' your blog, man. Perhaps you'd be down to swap a link? Mine's brand new... Keep up the good work.

    cheers

    http://therockinvegan.blogspot.com/

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  3. I can only admire you... I wished I could become a vegan too. I have been a vegetarian since my late teens but the transition to veganism would mark me as an outcast for both work colleagues, and friends, not to mention my own wife and kids...they moan already that I am difficult as it is...any advice??

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  4. Actually, as a vegan pastry chef, and just as a baker in general, I'm here to tell you that most breads (and rolls) aren't made with milk or eggs. Sometimes, someone decides to ruin a perfectly good roll by using milk instead of water, but it's not necessary, and not that common either... because it costs them more money to use milk than it does water. You should ask them.

    I've been vegan since I was 10 and I own a vegan home bakery and my mom owns a vegan bakery, so if you ever have any questions or want any tips I'd be glad to help.

    dina at dharmabakery dot com

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  5. onefunkyworld,
    thank for the support. I like your blog, too. I like getting food ideas wherever I can.

    Toni,
    My only advice would be to do what you feel is right for yourself. If you want to be vegetarian or vegan, do it. Make sure you have enough to eat so you aren't being difficult. It's not easy in certain social situations, but you'll figure it out. Maybe your friends, colleagues and family would slowly come around once they saw how important it is to you.

    dinataruni,
    unfortunately, they do use milk in these rolls :( I asked. Thanks for the heads up though, I'll ask in the future more knowing they're likely vegan. I like your blog too—The photos are amazing!

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  6. I like your honesty, I think sometimes people think veganism is about being perfect or militant, but people do still crave sometimes.

    (I'm also a vegetarian looking to become mostly vegan, my blog is vegienoob.blogspot.com if you're interested. :) )

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